That’s Not Real

When I read the book Life of Pi, for the first hundred pages or so, I thought it was a memoir. It wasn’t until the protagonist reached the carnivorous island that I flipped to the front and found the words A NOVEL clearly printed on the cover. Ha! I thought. How embarrassing. I continued to enjoy the book, but not quite as much as I had when I’d thought it was real.

Years later, my husband looked up from the book he was reading and said, “Did you know there was a type of dinosaur that had language and used tools for hunting?”

“What?” I replied. “Where’d you hear that?”

He turned his book – Evolution – to face me, and I pointed at the words A NOVEL on the cover. We had a good laugh. He’d already heard the Life of Pi story, so he knew he was in good company.

For the past couple of months, I’ve been working on a revision of the first book of Aret. Going through it again reminds me of the days when Dad was the book’s chief critic and grilled me continually about wording and plot points. One of my favorite memories from that era was when he took exception to the protagonist’s employment.

Dad: “Why is Diana a carpenter’s apprentice? Isn’t that weird?”

Me: “Women go into carpentry, Dad. One of my closest girlfriends in Oregon is a journeyman carpenter.”

Dad: “But shouldn’t Diana be something else? It just doesn’t seem realistic.”

<Moment of silence in my parents’ kitchen>

Mom: “Isn’t this book about dragons?”

Me: “Yes.”

Mom: “With people turning into dragons and dragons turning into people and everybody flying around between different worlds?”

Dad and Me: “Yes.”

Mom: “And that’s the part you find unrealistic?”

As I began this latest revision with Dad’s voice echoing in my head, I briefly considered changing Diana’s employment to something more ordinary. But then I remembered, if readers aren’t tipped off by the dragons or species transformations or the travels between worlds, they’ll still have that helpful A NOVEL designation on the cover to serve as their guide.

Oh! It’s fiction. Got it. That explains the carpenter thing.

Back to Aret

For the past couple years, I’ve worked on a book of interlocking stories, all of which follow the lives of four siblings as they travel through the foster care system. Each chapter is told from a different point of view: the police officer who removes the kids; foster parents; the birth mom; social workers; the kids themselves; etc. In February, sixteen chapters in, I decided to go back to the beginning and work on revisions before moving forward. And then the world collapsed, and I stopped working on it altogether.

When I opened the document last week, I found myself reading about a cop sitting in a bar, drinking a beer and listening to a woman nearby talk to her friends. In the next scene, he waits in his patrol car while three kids step off a school bus. Well, shit, I thought. This is a pre-COVID world. And since I have no idea what a post-COVID world will look like, and I don’t feel like rewriting the whole book with the characters in masks and physically distancing, I decided the project needs to be shelved.

The upside of this is that I’m returning to Aret.

Book cover design by Fian Arroyo

Book Three has been sitting around tapping its foot for years, and it’s time to give it some attention. Besides, spending time on a world with multiple wars and man-eating dragons seems like a pretty decent option right about now.

The Passage to Aret

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Before moving to Orcas Island in the fall of 2012, I’d had two dreams about dragons. The first featured a woman storming across a bar to confront a man who’d been glaring at her. I remember him as foul and sinister, reminiscent of the Purple Pieman from Strawberry Shortcake, and when she looked down at him and growled, “What the hell is your problem?” he replied, “You, Dragon.” That was the whole dream, but it was enough to inspire a brief note in my journal – something like, “Had a dream re: dragons. Should write a book about it someday.”

In the second dream, I noticed a little hole in my arm, poked my fingers inside, and pulled out a long, thin, dormant dragon. After inspecting it for a moment, I realized I didn’t know what to do with it, so I just let it slide right back through the hole and into my arm. And that was that. There were no feelings of fear, pain, or disgust – only a sense of acceptance. “A sleeping dragon lives in my arm. Good to know.”

I lived on Orcas for 3 months. My intention for that time was to finish a novel I’d been working on for the past year, and, more generally, try to get my head on straight. As it turns out, I picked the perfect place for both. Before I moved there, a long-time resident told me, “Orcas will either work for you, or it won’t. You’ll know its answer right away.” She was right. The island welcomed me with open arms. On my first morning, a river otter ran across the front yard, and bald eagles swooped through the air in front of my little house. On my third night, as I sat journaling on the waterfront, I looked up and saw this.

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Fiery meteors shot through the sky each night. The woods where I took my daily hikes were magnificent, carpeted with thick, green moss and exploding with foxgloves and incredible mushrooms. Even the tree stumps were friendly.

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What I discovered as a newly-unemployed person living all alone was that there are lots of hours in a day. After three weeks, I’d reached the end of the novel I’d gone to Orcas to finish. I sent it to a group of people for feedback, then experienced about thirty minutes of satisfaction before I thought, Huh. Now what am I supposed to do?

One of the ways I’d used all those daily hours was reading the journals I’d kept over the past 15 years, and when I rediscovered my dragon dreams, I decided to revisit the bar scene. Who were those people? Why was that woman a dragon, and how did the Purple Pieman know? So I began to write the story of Aret, and the woman grew younger, feistier, and became Diana Scarlett, and the man softened, developed three dimensions, and became Sien Dolsmati.

In truth, Orcas Island handed me the story of Aret. Whenever I had a question about a character or plot point in a story that became more rich and complicated each day, I set myself on a hiking trail or planted myself by the water, and the answer appeared. I’ve always been imaginative, but when it came to Aret, it didn’t feel like I was using my imagination. It felt like I was figuring something out – something that was already there, floating around, waiting for someone to notice.

Soon, there were dragons all around me – in the forests, on the waterfront, and in the clouds. At first, I took a picture of each one.

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But eventually I stopped. There were too many of them. Instead of getting out the camera each time one presented itself, I simply smiled and waved. Yes, hello. I see you. I’m writing your story.

By the time I left Orcas, Aret was written from beginning to end, but it was only a story, not a book. Now, three years later, after much revision, feedback, and more revision, Aret is a true book. And it’s my favorite kind of book, too – the kind that sweeps up its readers and lets them get lost for awhile.

Now all I have to do is publish it.

And write the next two books, because, as it turns out, Aret is a trilogy.

It’s a good thing days contain all those hours.

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