“Stupid COVID” has been my constant refrain over the past two and a half years, and at long last, it got its stupid hooks in me. Today, I’m supposed to be spending time with a friend who’s visiting from California. We haven’t seen each other in seven years. Instead of giving her a big hug, I’m texting her places to eat, shop, and hang out in my own damn town while I sit at home on the couch. ARGH. Hmph x 1,000,000.
But in the interest of holding grief in one hand and gratitude in the other (thank you, Francis Weller), I’m going to focus on the upsides of my current bout with the plague:
- I got sick now instead of next week when we’re heading to the beach.
- My dogs are still willing to hang out with me.
- For fear of catching the covids himself, JR is cleaning everything in the house. 🎉
- I recently started a giant, epic fantasy novel, so I have that to keep me company. And if this sickness lasts a long time, I have another one waiting in the wings.
- It’s warm and sunny outside.
- I don’t have a fever. In fact, my temperature yesterday was 96.7. What the…is there such a thing as a reverse fever? Or is that just hypothermia?
- We have an extra bedroom where I get to sleep without the usual addition of a 130-pound dog in the bed.
- The chapter I’m currently writing in the third book of Aret is deeply bleak and disturbing, which is a perfect match with my physical/emotional/mental state. So…yay for that.
All right, I seem to have hit a snarky patch in my attempt to be grateful, so it may be time for a nap. The most important thing I need to remember right now is this: I normally long for downtime to focus on things like reading and writing, so resenting it simply because it’s been forced upon me is pretty stupid.
But not as stupid as COVID. 🤬
2 thoughts on “Stupid COVID”
That’s A LOT of good balancing. Stupid COVID hasn’t stolen your spirit or your sense of humor. As Papa used to say when we were sick, “Just lie back and enjoy your ill health.” 😂 Love you so much – hope you have a swift and complete recovery. 💕
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Mijaaaa. How are you feeling? I hope so much better now! Thanks for all the recommendations. I can see why you love living in NC so much! The town has similar vibes to SC, but with a lot more options it seemed like. I saw a lot of people dressing up, maybe there was a scavenger hunt? And some bachelor and bachelorettes parties were happening, and some weddings too! It was busy in the promenade. 😄
I love the quote you shared. Como es arriba, es abajo, ley de la polaridad.
“The work of the mature person is to carry grief in one hand and gratitude in the other and to be stretched large by them. How much sorrow can I hold? That’s how much gratitude I can give. If I carry only grief, I’ll bend toward cynicism and despair. If I have only gratitude, I’ll become saccharine and won’t develop much compassion for other people’s suffering. Grief keeps the heart fluid and soft, which helps make compassion possible.”
― Francis Ward Weller
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